Haven't blogged for a super long time already cause I was down with stomach problems,had to mug much,had to dance much and was too lazy when I had the bit of time to blog!

Anyways,here I am now with a bunch of pics cause I love pictures and they speak a thousand words yes?
































yay okay many more pictures to go.Like duhh I've been MIA for sooooooo incredibly long obviously I have many pictures yea!Anyways,I'm too lazy to post them all here since they're on facebook hahahahohohohehehe.

Last dance over and the truth hasn't really sunk in yet. I'm always slow in these things.In accepting the truth and all.Like how when my grandad died when I was in P4,I was still waiting for him after school 1 week later.Thoughts in a jumbled up mess now and I don't know what I'm supposed to do.I badly need a place to vent,to say,to express but I guess now isn't the time yet.

I need time. To accept,to admit,to finally realise

That it's really over.

Long time since I've posted & life has been anything but great so far.Anyways,too many things to do,to think about at the moment,so i shall blog again soon.

I hope.

HAPPY CNY ANYWAYS!
I'm not late cause there're 15 days!

FYI,I got my IC and am very happy about being able to finally get it!Though I look pretty much like shit la hahahahaha

Overdue pictures first,some from milleniums ago!
Crescent and Nan Hua sec 4 dancers at combined practice!

Yilin and I in school in the toilet.&I'm super guai")

Crescent and Nan Hua sec 4 dancers again!

Yilin and I in school again!and Daphine's tieing her hair in the background.

Dance Banner for CCA Extravaganza!cheena but damn coooool.

Laughing like crazy at the surprise cake in church on my birthday!Unglam bleah.

Yay not unglam anymore but i have cake on my face takes to Wei!Thanks for the surprise and presents Phos!")

Yilin and I yesterday,at crescent nan hua sec 4 dancers bbq.

shitty look fat here bleah.

yay camwhoring in the toilet at Amelia's house yesterday!

And camwhoring somemore at the pool!

Yay had truckloads of fun yesterday at Crescent Nan Hua sec 4 dancers BBQ.We suck at starting fire though,but it's okay!Think most of us had fun ya?Chatting,Tai Di-ing,fanning the fire,eating,camwhoring.Oh yea took a bus home yeserday with Liangyuan and Olivia from Clementi.Such an achievement!Think I would have been lost without them,or at least I'd been panicking like shitty.Jinghui went home earlier,hope you're better from your tummyache now!&Angelina accompanied her.HAHA she's pretty nice cause I heard she accompanied Lingyuan home when she was sick during CIP.

Oh which reminds me about CIP on friday.Super tiring to the max!Yilin and I carried this humongours computer set from the 3rd floor down the stairs which made us sweat like eeeewwwww.Then the truck came very late and we stayed cause we can get more CIP hours + it'd be very irresponsible and the teacher's would be stranded.Besides,the teachers were nice to talk to!Nick Liu,A Yeo,James Koh,Chanster and Mr Wee(only for a while)Talked about manymany things!Like old friends!") super cool to the max!Especially this line:Well,you can't blame a person for having a pathetic social life!With referrence to _______.YAY

That's about all.My last CCA Extravaganza's over like so fast shitty mama what am I going to do with such little time left -.-

Why do some people study so hard,slog their guts out,and still fail,while others slack around and ace exams?Life's unfair,I totally get it now.

0.0 SCHOOOOOOL.SHITTY

Sometimes,it feels like nothing goes right.
Sometimes,it feels like I'll never make it,
Like I'm just a good-for-nothing,
That no matter how hard I try,
I'll still fail
and fail
and fail.

But I don't want to believe that that's me.
Even if that's me,I want to change it.
I want to stop failing,
stop letting so many people down,
stop making so many people worry.
I don't want to settle for 2nd best,
don't want to find that I can't even face myself,
don't want to be the loser who can't even do this.

It's ardous,exhausting,but I'm carrying on.


&there are some things I wish I could say,wish I could tell.

I haven't been posting cause there's just too much to do.Had some gum "operation" thingy yesterday and cca extravaganza's on sat.(I know there's no link)Lots of work to do,lots of tests,don't even have time for a proper end-of-2008 post -.-

Whatever.HATE SEC 4 LIFE.AND I'M VERYVERYERY SCARED THAT I'M THE FAILURE FOR A MATH ENTRANCE TEST.DAMN I WASN'T THIS FREAKED OUT BEFORE I ACTUALLY TYPED THAT SENTENCE DOWN AND STARED AT IT FOR LIKE 2 SECONDS -.- I CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL THAT IT'S SO UNFAIR.LIKE,I JUST TURNED 15!!!AND BOOM!HOMEWORK,TEST,SCHEDULES,EXPECTATIONS...AND O LVL CHINESE RESULTS ARE OUT ON MONDAY AND I'M VERY SCARED ABT THAT TOO.okay I was just ranting.

SHITTY.SHITTY.SHITTY.

IT'S 2009!

Time really flies like voooooom!2008 was really roller-coaster liked.Full of ups and downs,but I still miss everything.But I shall post about that on the 1st day of school(tomorrow).And I so do not want to be a sec 4.Like so unfair I just turned 15,and then I become a sec 4!They should treat me with leniency for O lvls!

Anyway,I got CREAM already!Like finally!(Cream says hi.She's a super fast talker.)Cream is my build-a-bear bear by the way!She's very adorable,and the only girl amongst the clique 8 bears!Clique 8 only has 7 bears though.Cream(mine),Ice(Lingyuan's),Ainsley(Yilin's),Einstein(Angelina's),Prince(Jinghui's),Joseph(Olivia's) and Perrywinkle(Joanne's)!Yiyang doesn't have 1 cause he's a bear himself XD Got Cream yesterday when I went shopping with clique 8!The north people were late!&Joanne owes me 50 mins!HEHEHE.Anyways,got a top from Zara(The 4 early birds got 1 of each colour available)and Cream and that's all.

Oh yea CHRISTMAS was great!Phos surprised me with a cake ") and it just was really really great!Christmas party at night at all,and party on christmas eve.The love,the presents ") I was a really happy 15 year old!

Watchnight was great too!The songs,the sharing,the countdown...everything!Baked a cake with Wei and Kai 2 days before for Yashi and Darryl's birthday at Wei's house!WE NEARLY BAKED THE METAL SPOON!!!That was like,the biggest joke of the day!Our cake turned out like shitty,but Wei's mum managed to salvage it!She's a total cake genius!Anyways,celebrated their birthdays after that then went home cause I wasn't allowed to stay over -.-

KL trip was like Malacca trip.Lots of eating,shopping,but like alot more camwhoring ")

I shall have a separate post for pictures cause blogger is taking very long today!HMPH.

I'm still blogging and not sleeping(!)cause my parents are not home yet!Mummy went for a wedding dinner and Daddy went to pick her up.Oh wells.

This holidays was like full of reminiscing the past,trying to study for A Math,Shopping,Eating,Having fun,_________,thinking about the future(that's what happens when you're alone and the rest of the people are out or working or overseas),dancing,sleeping,putting on weight(sleep,eat,sleep,eat),dealing with stuffy shitty,going overseas with relatives,being even more vain,dressing abit more maturely,buying many shoes learning the art of buying 15 pairs of shoes at 1 go from my aunt...

&I can stop now.My parents are home!")

Singapore lost to Vietnam!That's pretty normal though,we hardly even win anything.

Came back from Malacca trip on friday night.Bought less stuff this time round and more fooood.I love nonya food!Especially Rempah Udang!And so,I became fatter already!Need to diet but christmas is coming!!!Then after that will be Chinese New Year like super sooooon. -.- RAHH

Went to House of Gourmet with my parents and aunt+cousins today!Saw Joanne at the entrance,then went in and sawJinghui and Angelina and Daphine with sister!Then saw Lingyuan who gave me a big hug and flyers with"Lingyuan loves Rachel." and "Yilin loves Rachel." and "Angelina too." behind! ")Then,saw Yilin who looked like a butcher,or a butcher's wife!XD And Olivia came running out of the chiller with lots of ice!Yay was super happy to see everyone ") and then bought ice-cream then went home which made me a little happier than I already was!

Wedding tomorrow!Church wedding+Dinner!EEEK FATS!! XD

&I really hope to countdown to christmas with all of you!Lingyuan,Joanne,Olivia,Yiyang,Jinghui,Angelina and Yilin!
Oh and we're going to build a bear soooon!") And watch twilight! On the 28th!

Yay I'm a very happy giant!